Meaningless

I was wrong about my initial stand on *changing* others. Changing isn't the right word here but I can't think of a better word at the moment cause I am so annoyed ugh. I know you shouldn't change a person completely. That mindset isn't right cause one should only change on his own accord and not just cause someone is pushing him to do so. It should be a willing process. Maybe a little push is alright or let just call that motivation. I never meant to change anyone. Even if it was for the better. I mean who are you to say if it was for the better? So what if it's for his own good? Who are you in his life to begin with?

I mean you could mean no harm, just genuine concern but what good does it do for you? I'm not saying you should do things that benefit yourself but... it'll help if you knew where you stand. Or it's just going to be a meaningless effort. It's just really sad to see such happening but now that it's not and it should not even be a concern to me. It sucks. I swear my heart just sank and instantly I became furious. Time and time again I wish I could do something to change... But what am I changing? Change your habits? Tell me how is it possible. 

It was the last but your last became a start. You keep falling back to the trap then my words just fade away, smoked away to ashes. I don't want to change you. I never did. I wished you could see it from my point of view. Maybe this is the right time to answer your question, "Why do you care?" -

Because you mean a lot to me and always will. 

Because I like you (too much, maybe?) to let you do that to yourself.

Because I genuinely do care about you, because I want to.

But fuck it, these words are a tad too late to even take effect and would it even move you? I could give you another thousand and one reasons why but why bother?

I'd probably regret posting this but really, fuck it. Goodnight.