i'm no longer a kid

went TP to appeal, it was shit scary okay like it hit me that i am not a little kid anymore.
as in, i am 17 this year, though it's just another year added but i really feel there's much more to being 17.

this time, i am out on my own, very much, almost responsible for my own actions, not that i wasn't before this. just that i feel, personally that i am now no longer a kid, i have to think maturely, and no longer think too rigidly.

it's scary, really that i'm doing everything alone, but yes, with the help from my dearest Kak Eka that really made me open my mind. my family and friends helped me come to a decision but it feels like this time it's just different. like how i went tp on my own (Kak Absa helped me out, though thankfully :D) asked them if i could appeal through my cca, i think i bombarded the ppl there with quite afew qns as i did my direct admission exercise there, i even called up MOE to ask abt this other course that i pretty keen about- Consumer Science and Technology (can become Home ec teacher eh, cool what!) but unfortunately, the application was closed D:

okay maybe it's just me feeling this way cause i really think this time i actually went all out somewhat on my own, researching, asking people, etc. i kinda feel like a grown up alr. differs from the time in tk, whr things were much less complicated.

2010 baby, i'm really hoping my appeals are successful. praying hard that i will get in tp, cause i want to be in tp :)

you can't change anyone, but yourself.

honestly, i'm pretty scared.

but keeping the faith, and staying strong.