Some part of me secretly wished you were there

You know that feeling that you can seem to push away? Cause it lingers and refuses to budge. But of course I'm fine, cause you know, I've been living with it, somehow.

The day began with a dreadful 10am meeting....... Like who has meeting on a New Year's Eve eve :( So depressing. And with the program implementation pushed to 10 Jan from 18 Jan, it is going to be a mad rush for sure. Just the thought of it scares me. Whatever that lies ahead of us, I have faith we will pull through this period alive!!! All is well :)

So we met up with Ms Siti, discussed the amendments to be made such as posters, pre and post evaluation surveys, food items to be on display.... Need to get in touch with the person in charge to check out the school and plan the layout for the stations! Oh busy, busy week ahead indeed. From printing the finalised posters and purchasing the logistics and prizes. Expected budget of $1000 +++ so much money needed right!!! Honestly, I'm really, really scared. All this rush is making me really anxious of the outcome. Pushing it to 2 weeks earlier is definitely a big deal.

Trust me, so many thoughts are crossing my mind right now, I don't even know how to feel anymore. Yesterday was such a bad day. It just sucks so bad. I can't even get angry anymore? It's come to a point where getting angry isn't an option at all cause I can't seem to get angry. Hahahahaha this sounds really silly omg. And here is where food comes to the rescue. I bought sushi for myself last night and baked rainbow marble cupcakes for Daphne's gift :D I got to nom on it too and it's was pretty good? #selfpraise But the process of buying the ingredients all by myself......... It was so tiring! Getting the ingredients from different places and the packaging, etc. Then off to get materials for the card. It sucked cause there was so much stuffs to carry. Hahahahaha being #foreveralone didn't help either? I was so upset last night and to make things worse, the bus broke down on the way home...... SERIOUSLY. I had to walk to the next bus stop which was quite a distance away with all the bags in my hand :( Bad, bad night.

Well baking made me slightly better though, like always :')

Sidetrack lol. Anyways following that was the CaT meeting ~ Gonna have to prepare a 7 course Thai food theme meal for 35 servings! With a tight budget of $100!!!!
Note to self: I should be completing the powerpoint slides soon and check out the food cost of the ingredients at the supermarket tomorrow! Or more like.... Later in the day!!!!!!

K really sorry for this super whiny rant post. Really feeling shitty right now. I'm gonna blog about the rest of the day in another post cause now I'm feeling all cranky and exhausted.

Sigh why do I end up always saying the wrong things but I get upset instead.