Fire in your eyes

I guess fate can be pretty funny at times. It's not exactly a bad thing but it's just mildly interesting to see how your life unfolds from where it began. Like how you used to be so head over heels over this dude, and now he's pretty much like a friend. He is a friend but whoah, you were so crazy back then. Now you're like.... "Mmm this is weird, how did I even fall for him?"
K I mean he's a nice guy but that's not the point hahahaha. It's funny how I wished I would bump into him on busrides or go all squirmy if he texts me. Infatuation, another funny thing. But let's not go there. Hmmm so I guess it's odd how we got closer as I started to like him a little lesser each day. I'd probably freaked out and hyperventilate an hour before each time I meet him if I'd still liked him. Imagine if we were getting closer, and I had feelings for him. Imagine if I had the guts to confess. It would be nasty....... I guess.

You can always plan your life out. But, fate comes into the picture and may "mess" up the idea that you laid out. But I guess this makes things less expected. Like fate brought us together and I became friends with the guy I had a crush on. You can say my feelings were crushed (hahahaha pun intended) but hey I got to be friends with him. Blessing, definitely. Fate. Some things are meant to be, while some just aren't. It's sad. But I guess that's how things should work anyway. Fate is like an element of excitement in your life. May or may not be to your liking. But you gotta suck it up. And it sets in the harsh reality in your face.

I'm still just as awkward but less awkward cause there's strictly no feelings involved. The flame had slowly died off in the process, by gentle wind or probably extinguished cause it was too dangerous.

There wasn't any flame anymore. Time flies.