Sometimes it hurts instead

I wished people can be read like a map. Wouldn't it ease the complications? I'm not exactly the brightest, so can I have the easy way out?

Being from an all girls' school for the past 4 years has made me nothing but an awkward turtle. Ironic, but I am a loud, awkward turtle. I loved being in a girls' school. You don't really have to hold back much. You speak your mind, you get heard. Dramas are inevitable, but I am fine with it. Pretty much way of life, isn't it? With girls around, despite the drama, you'll still feel loved and secure. I was really at my comfort zone.

Stepping out of the comfort zone seemed easy but fitting into a new environment wasn't. I suppose you got to go through this shit of adapting. But, hey I love poly life. If I were to choose between poly or TK...... I'll probably ask for a mix. I'm still not used to having boys around though :x

I've always thought boys were pretty much like emotionless yet evil. I'm not feminist. Maybe being a girls' school made me that way. I'm not sure. I've always thought boys had multiple brick walls built around them, making them oblivious to everything in this world. Okay I think I just made myself sound like I'm all against boys. I'm not. I admit I'm not exposed to them and the amount of friends that are boys are only a handful......... Pathetic. Socially awkward person with few guy friends. I was from a co-ed primary school.... But that was like about 6 years ago. So it doesn't count. I was pretty close to boys. Then I don't know what happened. And hahahahaha I had a crush on the same guy for 2 years when I was in secondary school. That's explains right? And my girlfriends think I still do like him till now. Which is.... not true hahahaha.

I guess all the assumptions I've made, made me a very ignorant girl. Cause obviously, all I've assumed were merely just assumptions. There are some guys who are exactly like what I'd always thought they would be but generally guys, that I know of are human-like. Hahahaha okay duh. They're actually pretty nice. I love the fact that they never fail to make us laugh. Funny people. But irritating!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Asdfghjkl my life. Can't help it for them to be irritating. Well, I've learnt quite abit these days. Guys have feelings too, just like us girls. They get angry and it's freaking scary omg. I sound super idiotic I know but I'm just new to all these things. Like seeing your guy friends angry an stuff like that. Sorry I only got girlfriends #loser And okay I do know way before this but I just you'll only know better once you've experienced it? Won't elaborate much. It was pretty nasty for me I guess : ( K I am a bitch at times so it's my fault too. But honestly, I feel like crying when these things happen but crying doesn't make things any better right? It just gets really, really frightening....... I just don't know what to do.

At the end of the day, it's these things that bring you closer right? Learning from all the mistakes made....... Will make it a better friendship right! I've still got a looooooong way to go to understanding boys. Things will all be okay right?


And hey I just hope things will get better for us. As in things are okay just that at times we have our differences. I love your company of course. Having you guys around make my day. Eee alamak why sound so mushy........ But you get my point hahahaha. Things will fall into place xx