im sorry for everything
that ive done

but i really dont know what to do
ive been not myself lately
im just not myself still
and i dont know
why
i question myself
but all i get is silence
cause even i dont know the answers to my questions

im afraid to face reality
im scared to face the truth
im afraid of people losing their trust in me (well, i think some of them might already have)
im scared of making people angry with me (i have, and im really sorry)

i dont want to be alone
i need someone to listen to me
i dont want you to doubt me
i dont want to lose anyone

but you dont seem to care
and all i could do now
is to sit and stare
into space
until you realise that i was there
maybe i was just invisible to you?
havent you realise anything?
maybe i am really invisible
where did all the trust go?
where did all the doubts come from?


and you
im really sorry
i cant help it
im just not myself
i feel dumb
oh wait,
i am rather dumb
i havent been myself lately
im so sorry
for all these
forgive me


i dont think anyone cares right?
no one does

would anyone care to give me a hug?
i need one
i really do.


crap.
this post is so... emo
im sorry,
im not myself still.